Its that time of the year again. A time to reflect on my past and realize where I am today. I'm going to do it a little different this time around. Check out my blog from the past two years:
2010 (the 2009 reflection): http://marcdanyellblog.blogspot.com/2010/01/totally-un-focused.html#more
2011 (the initial 2010 reflection): http://marcdanyellblog.blogspot.com/2011/01/one-year-laterprogess.html#more
All I can say is wow. In retrospect, I should have noticed a pattern that was leading me to an eventual eruption, but I was so young-minded. I felt like I could take on the world. Boy is hindsight 20/20. Much of 2011 can easily be the breakdown from two years of just GOING. My stress level was at its peak, I was diagnosed with High Blood Pressure, I wasnt sleeping, and things around me started crumbling. Not only did I hate my job, but I wound up dealing with a broken engagement. To top it off, I wasn't being fed at church. I was just an all around mess.
Let me stop here. 2011 wasn't an all-out catastrophe. I was blessed enough to release my debut Gospel album entitled "Close To You." I had a OUTSTANDING vacation in St. Kitts. I even had the chance to sing for (and record with) the great John P. Kee. I had a great team supporting me (shouts to my ex and my manager. I wouldnt be where i am without you two). I had a very successful year. But I wasn't able to truly celebrate and appreciate due to the dark cloud my stressers created over me. I really felt that although I was "successful" on paper, I was at my lowest of lows in life.
It's in your trials that God reveals the beauty and perfection in life. I can truly say that at the start of 2012, I'm not in the place I was in during the start of both 2010 and 2011. I am loved greater than I've ever experienced in life. I am not stressed. I will have a new worship experience, new job, new apartment (in a great neighborhood) all by the end of January of this year. I've learned what it means to slow down and to take care of myself. Sometimes it takes you hitting the brink of insanity to see these things. I can say I'm a better person today.
I'm excited for 2012. I know God has a great plan for my ministry, my personal life, and my professional life. So I stand, rejuvenated and focused. Ready for what God has for me!!
Be blessed, my friends.
MD
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