Arrgh...its been a little over a month and I have yet to write anything in this blog. I guess that's in someway indicative of how my focus has been for the past month or so. Between going home for Christmas, coming back, moving, trying to organize, oh yeah, and working....my life has just been one big cluster of movement. And here's the kicker, I have that feeling that I've done SOOOO much, but i've accomplished nothing. I feel like I've just been a busy body and have done nothing of value as of late.
This has got to turn around! Something has got to change in my life. I've been dictated sooo many deadlines that I've been forced to live by a strict schedule. I have to be out of my apartment by this date....I have to write this many songs by this date....I have to play this game by this date...I have to have this money ready by this date....i have to move my stuff out of storage by this date. I have to be ready to sing this song by this date. I have to finish this project at work by this date. GORRRRG....I have scheduled relaxation right out of my life, and I feel that there's NO joy in living. Now dont get it twisted, I'm not talking suicide here...dont alert the masses. But what I'm saying is, I havent had time to really enjoy....life. God has blessed me with so many things....what good is it if I can't relish it?
Not to mention that its in those quiet times that God gives us those greatests Words (using His sweet still voice). In essense, I feel like I'm just a drone, reacting to the commands (or demands) of the world. I HAVE TO SLOW THIS DOWN.
Notice I said slow it down...don't you just wish you could break out of the world of deadlines just for once?
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