Intermission: Just a Prayer

Hello my family....I wrote a prayer out yesterday, and I wanted to share it with everyone.   I'm not going to edit it.  I'm not going to prettify it.  I'm just going to share it with you all.


God, my Father.  I come to you humbly, grateful for all that you are for me...all that you've done for me.  I've taken some time to think.  There is so much I struggle with:

• The burden of pleasing everyone
• The feeling of loneliness although everyone is around
• The feelings of failing You
• The fear of being irrelevant
• The fear of weight gain
• The constant pain in my body
• The silent tears I cry because I feel I can't share with others (even if I can)

It's all just so much to bear at times. But I know who you are and what you stand for. They say you specialize in great outcomes. Well, I'm not even looking for a GREAT outcome. I just want to have peace in my spirit and a spirit of gratitude For the gifts you have given me. I'm tired of always wanting someone else's gifts. I'm tired of feeling like I cant...just because I feel others have it so much better.  I love you God, but this internal war is getting to me. I'm weaker than I thought. But you've promised me that for every situation I'm brought to, you've already planned a way of escape.  Give me the strength to just hold one through it all.

I know that there are people out there that are struggling with the same things that I am.  I just pray that we are able to come together (in spirit) and encourage each other out of these thoughts and feelings that attempt to subdue our joy.  Everyday we have the opportunity to live Galatians 6:2.  I know at the end of the day, I cant make it without any of you.

Thank you for being there for and with me...


Blessings,


MD