PROCEED WITH CAUTION: As many of you know, I'm not usually the one that preaches to people in their blogs...or tries to sell an idea or thought to someone in order to start/further some digital movement. I do thoroughly enjoy reading those types of blogs, but they just aren't not MY strong point. What I write about is simple...my life. I write it in hopes that it resonates with someone, and they can either give me some advice/guidance (selfishly speaking) or it blesses them to know that they don't deal with these types of things alone. That said, let me jump to today's blog...
Life is funny. Life is full of endless opportunities, yet starkly limited due to our mortality. It is both simple and complex. The moments we share are said to live for a lifetime, but that lifetime seems to go by in just moments (yeah, i came up with that). We spend most of our days figuring out how to make life better. And most of us don't do it just ourselves, but we do it for ones we love as well. Most of us put our necks on the line so it can be easier for our family. In essence, from birth we develop this servant mentality that drives us to do whatever we do. Whether it be family, love, money, success, or just plain happiness; something is always at the core of what we do.
We set goals, and we march towards them. Today, more than anytime in history, we ALL have the ability to achieve that which we set out to do. That's the beauty of the world today. But the thing that irks me the most is that in those times when you're a marching towards something that you KNOW will be a blessing to the people you truly love, but you wind up feeling unappreciated. Have you ever worked really hard for something...im talking putting your full energy into making it better...only to have the person you're doing it for just dismiss it? I've had that happen in college (s/o to nearly ALL of my professors...lol), in relationships (s/o to all my ex's), in life general. Shucks, I've done it to others.
Aside: We never truly appreciate a person until their gone. That's why funerals are so powerful. It forces us to think back on all the good times we had with that person...all other things just seem so trivial.
Flipping it back, I have to say that its one of the most painful things in the world when you give yourself to/for someone and they either don't acknowledge it or point out what you DIDNT do instead. This is what makes giving so hard. This is why I have the utmost respect to all those people-servants out there: the parents, teachers, pastors, employees, everyone who's primary role is doing something for others. Why? Because for every one person you truly touch, there are ten others that can make you feel ineffective and worthless.
This isn't the path that I originally planned on taking with this post, but I know it will touch someone. Unfortunately, I don't have the answer on how you make it through the feelings of inadequacy and worthlessness. I'm actually in that place right now myself. Now, I could throw out the cliches that are so prevalent in the church today, but I will spare you. But there is one verse out there that just reminds me of how I SHOULD respond (even though I don't all the time...lol):
2 Chronicles 7:14.
Intro....Deuces...(s/o to Nina...)
MD
